Friday, July 21, 2006
12:26 AM
When a person is hurt over and over again, with lies that people decided to hide, where we find them out from another person, what would you do?
Would you walk away and try to leave it all behind? Would you put on a mask when you see that person again? What would you do?
It is not about being a strong person, it is not about being able to put it all away, it is definitely not about learning from the past. It is the pain. A pain that seems unreal, but is real within.
How about people that just disappeared from our lives because they could not take something of our past, or even what we are currently doing.
Should I feel hurt? Pain? Regrets? Be brave and walk away?
To be exact, that person might actually be happier right now, long put away those thoughts. Long moved on to their lives. Some might jsut want you out for good. Some might still want to bond it back. Some might jsut want to stay. The question is, why the assunption when they could have understand the reason behind, or even the past? Why judge before a spoken or confirmed fact and reality?
What is the price to pay for being so patient and nice? What is the price to pay for keeping one mouth shut? What is the price to pay for a friendship that was once knitted closely?
Is ignorance really a bliss at times? What about denials? What are facts, what are truths?
Is this a psychological process? An emotional turmoil? A war between the good and bad, the white and black, or even the grey?
The question again. Why? How do we know it is right or wrong? Our sixth sense could lie. Our instincts could be forged.
A bitter laughter? Or a bitter joke? Which is which?
Could people actually make better use of the time? Rather than at that time?
I feel torn right at this moment. Pieces that seem to shatter once again. Betrayal is hard to gain back a trust and faith. Because of timely tries came back with same results.
Tears are the beginning and the end.
Most times, it is both at fault, not entirely one. Its whether both wants to work it out together, rather than both deciding against each other.
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